I ALWAYS

I ALWAYS ....

i always cry n cry
no one see my tearsdrop ..
no one ever know im was crying ..
even when i smile ..
i will cry ..

people try to understands n try to know me really close ..
but .. i cant let they know me or understands me ..
coz i hate it n i dont know why ..
yeah ..
sometimes i need someone to understands me or hear me when i need ..
but to me theres no point ..
n there a guy have appear in my world
i share everything with him
everything n now ...
he just walk out from my world ..
n now .. i just .. stay in my world ..
no one understands me ..
coz ill never let them enter to my world ..
n now i really scared if someone appear in my world n then ..
walked away from my world ..
i really scared if  it happen again to me ..
if it happen again to me ..
i will ...
i dont know ...
i really for Allah sake ..
i dont know wht to do ..
well guess look like im goin to cry n cry again n again ..
BUT I WILL SMILE N HEPPY FROM THE OUTSIDE !!
IN MY MY HEART ONLY ALLAH KNOWS !!